in the library....

Can't focus can't focus can't focus can't focus..................... lalalalala..............................lalalala...........................lalalala............................lalalala.........................ahhhhhhhhh....................................yes I feel like I'm screaming in my head. It's screaming at me, yelling at me telling me to get a grip........................ and..... I just can't focus..... can't do anything I just want to run around in circles. run around in circles. maybe hop a few times, go run through a field, a field and look at the stars and go to the swing set........... and not write a paper. who cares about papers anyway? Why the fuck must I write a paper. It has so little meaning to me, so little impact on the bigger scheme of things... I just don't see why.... don't see why.... yet I know that I should, I know that I must, I musn't fuck things up again... no not again............. no not again..... no not again...... control control control control........... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............ screaming in my head................ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........................... not really in my head... no im not hearing voices... its my own voice yelling at me, looking down on me, saying i'm pathetic, but I'm not pathetic, I'm fabulous... I'm just aware that papers are stupid. Papers are utterly stupid. So stupid. Super stupid. Superdy Duperdy stupid. Super super super mega super superdy duperdy mega really god damn fucking fuck fuck fucking stupid.

yes.

THAT stupid.

So why must I do stupid things?

THAT is the question

Why do people keep making me do things I don't wanna do!

I don't wanna write a paper!!

I wan't to eat banana chips and go on a merry go round.

Yes a merry go round. Remember how much fun those were as a kid. Why did they stop being fun for so many people?

They're STILL fun. If they're not fun to you that's just cause you are also stupid.

STUPID.

STUPID.....


I guess that's not a really nice word. I don't really mean it folks. Anyone who is reading this is clearly not stupid at all. You are all in fact quite fabulous. Very fabulous... so fabulous... so much more fabulous than this paper.... yes...

AHHHHHHHH..


yes... yes.... yess.....

perhaps I will submit this as my paper.

how about THAT.

no just kidding... I wouldn't do that. Don't worry folks... or maybe.. folks? who says folks anyway... other than the end of cartoons, yes I know you know what I'm talking about. I miss cartoons. They used to be so entertaining. I'm not sure if they still are or not, but I have a suspicion I wouldn't be quite as amused as I used to be.

hmmm.... paper.......... peace out cub scout. be the bomb diggity, shiznit, chillax,

why do I have the urge to go take down all of those pictures on the wall. yes I just want to smash them down. every single one of them.

hmmm... well at least Alex is being more productive because I'm here. I think he is anyway... he looks like he's being productive.

Productivity is so overrated anyway.

I'm so much more fun.

Fun is definitely underrated.